Tonight was pretty cool. I haven’t done something this interesting in a while. I like it, it was a pretty cute hang out session at the beach on the rocks and getting piggy back rides so I wouldn’t fall. Lol, it’s nice going out and having an A good time with someone. I’ve been shutting people out because I’ve chose to intoxicate myself everyday from what started because I temporary wanted to forget what made my heart break apart. I still have a wall up for everyone around me. I just want to live life happy, working, and with a good guy. Tonight made me think I should put myself out there again and stop denying the people who want to be their for me. I want to feel like a good person internally again, I’m happy with my life but sometimes it gets lonely for a second until I intoxicate myself again. I think the only way for me to feel even better about myself is to share my happiness with someone again. This time with someone that knows they want to be with me and would be able to accept my kindness and sincerity. I’m not saying I want to be with this person but it for me thinking that I should stop being a working couch potato that’s anti social with her peers.